I'm as
active as ever in all levels of my existence: physically, emotionally, mentally
and spiritually. It is curious that in the midst of uncertainty I'm more
and more certain of the highest and deepest desire of my heart and soul
which it is to keep engaged and active in the wake up call that we're
traversing and that is inviting us to "Service in Action" !!!
The
only negative spot that I find in the experience of all this frenetic every day
attendance to "some event" of the "utmost importance" for
the world and for Humanity is, that everything gets soooo grand and
radically urgent and therefore important that ...YES... I do think very globally,
but I get stuck when going local.
In my
country, Spain, if I go to most of the relationships in the lower right
quadrants with any type of proposal of the kind that I'm hearing in the
wonderful "global events" to which I'm attending, the least that it could happen is that they
smile politely and nothing happens and I'm in the lower right situation then I
get another minute of attention when they get my proposal in the paper basket
after leaving their office. It is extremely difficult (or at least I do not
know how to do it) to get a real impact for change, I suppose that not only
here but elsewhere. And when I talk
about impact, I'm talking about getting up to the level of getting governments
to steer their movement toward a higher state of positive and useful actions. The
level of consciousness I find in most of the politicians of the world (and I'm
soooo sorry to say this) is the level of
a Primary School class, accusing and
even insulting one another, always looking for the defense of their own agenda
and beliefs, losing their and our time in never ending non-dialogical debates instead
of facing the real important and excruciating matters that the present "storm
of crisis" are bringing: Coronavirus
pandemic, Climate Change, Economic,
Social and Political crisis.
Thus,
after attending all these fabulous global events of well informed,
inspiring and experienced individuals with great curriculums and heroic actions
and results, I end up with the strange sensation of
"coitus interruptus", feeling that we're performing a massive
intellectual collective masturbation in order to feel that we're doing
"something", as we do not have any idea to where ALL may take
us and much more less when. And moreover we're doing all this with the
frantic belief (oh, yes based on facts !!!) that we do not have time to perform
in a calm or slow motion manner -to at least have some pleasure- but on
the contrary speeding up because the truth is that MOTHER EARTH is coming as it
seems that is not approving what her children have been doing !!!
And
then .... in the midst of all this "apparent movement" (and I will
call it apparent until I see at least five important countries taking real serious
measurements to counteract what we're traversing) … I enter into deep meditation...and finally
have some REAL ACTION !!!
Don't
get me wrong, I loooove attending these events and hearing all these wonderful
people, but the truth is that I'm overwhelmed as I would like to become
activists of everything, supporting everyone !!! I finally end up doing nothing
because when I subscribe the result is
another meeting online which makes me feel ( in this low level from which I'm
speaking right now) like a monkey jumping from one vine to the other !!!
And then, again, ...I enter into deep meditation....
and focus on the things that I DO ( small little things to take care of myself
and others) and I abide in such a peace of mind and my soul finally rests
!!!
Whenever there is something more that I could do and
that would be for me to do...., I will know and THEN I will do it. Meanwhile
.... "peace, be still. !!!
